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Hornchurch, Essex, United Kingdom
26 year old Theatre Person, who hopes to one day become a fully fledged lighting designer. Currently living and working in Hornchurch at the lovely Queens Theatre (yes i know that implies i live at the theatre, it's meant to).I'm a Traveller of many roads including Canada, Germany and Namibia. I love Reading, Dissecting Films, Writing Plays, Angleing Lights, Levelling Sounds, Creating Photographs (when drunk and sober) Playing Guild Wars/Sims 3 and going out with my friends! I have an unrivalled passion for Kimi Raikkonen and motor sports in general.

Monday, December 24, 2007

thou shalt always...

Thou shalt not steal if there is direct victim.
Thou shalt not worship pop idols or follow lost prophets.
Thou shalt not take the names of Johnny Cash, Joe Strummer, Johnny Hartman, Desmond Decker, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix or Syd Barrett in vain.
Thou shalt not think any male over the age of 30 that plays with a child that is not their own is a pedophile - Some people are just nice.
Thou shalt not read NME.
Thou shalt not stop likin' a band just 'cause they’ve 'come popular.
Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.
Thou shalt not judge a book by its cover.
Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover.
Thou shalt not buy Coca-Cola products, thou shalt not buy Nestle products.
Thou shalt not go into the woods with your boyfriend’s best friend, take drugs and cheat on him.
Thou shalt not fall in love so easily.
Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls’ pants - use it to get into their heads.
Thou shalt not watch Hollyoaks.
Thou shalt not attend an open mic and leave as soon as you done your shitty little poem or song, you self-righteous prick.
Thou shalt not return to the same club or bar week in, week out, just ’cause you once saw a girl there that you fancied but you’re never gonna fucking talk to.

Thou shalt not put musicians and recording artists on ridiculous pedestals no matter how great they are or were.
The Beatles - Were just a band.
Led Zepplin - Just a band.
The Beach Boys - Just a band.
The Sex Pistols - Just a band.
The Clash - Just a band.
Crass - Just a band.
Minor Threat - Just a band.
The Cure - Were just a band.
The Smiths - Just a band.
Nirvana - Just a band.
The Pixies - Just a band.
Oasis - Just a band.
Radiohead - They're just a band.
Bloc Party - Just a band.
The Arctic Monkeys - Just a band.
The Next Big Thing - Just a band!

Thou shalt give equal worth to tragedies that occur in non-English speaking countries as to those that occur in English speaking countries.
Thou shalt remember that guns, bitches and bling were never part of the four elements and never will be.
Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music.
Thou shalt not pimp my ride.
Thou shalt not scream if you wanna go faster.
Thou shalt not move to the sound of the wickedness.
Thou shalt not make some noise for Detroit.
When I say “Hey” thou shalt not say “Ho.”
When I say “Hip” thou shalt not say “Hop.”
When I say, he say, she say, we say, make some noise - kill me.

[Ah, forgot where I was, hang on]

Thou shalt not quote Me Happy.
Thou shalt not shake it like a Polaroid picture.
Thou shalt not wish your girlfriend was a freak like me.
Thou shalt spell the word “Phoenix” P-H-E-O-N-I-X, not P-H-O-E-N-I-X, regardless of what the Oxford English Dictionary tells you.
Thou shalt not express your shock at the fact that Sharon got off with Brad at club last night by saying “Is it.”
Thou shalt think for yourselves.

And thou shalt always, thou shalt always... kill.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

num num num


i'm getting rather excited about my post-grad options. i know i know i haven't finished one uni course yet so why am i getting all het-up about another one! mainly because the RADA course would suite me perfectly, the Central course would be good for me (if stupidly expensive) the Welsh Col course is relatively cheap lol and although the Lamda one is too long i may as well apply anyway.

those are all the ones i've looked at so far but i'm gonna get applying over christmas i think. may as well get in there early! plus RADA and LAMDA both do course in the summer (again the RADA one looks better) which i shall be applying for. the main issue so far is whether or not i want to specialise in just Lighting design an electrics or should i be smart and study Stage Managament too on the Welsh Col course?

i think those of you who know me well know that i don't really give a fig (great expression) about SM and i love my lighting so i just have to be incredibly sparking in the RADA app as they only take 3 students a year.

but can you imagine...me....at RADA.....fooking awesome.


Saturday, November 10, 2007

Couldn't help but notice...

....how much blogging my sister has been doing over the last week. crazy mare :) sooooooooooo whats new with me hmmmm not much really. my birthday was a sad repeat of last year but without the 'ricay re-inforcements, instead of no drama paople coming out it was no tref people, other than Sean who is my sean :) but its those that put the effort in i count as my mates :) 2 of brychans mates came in from bath and oxford, and they've only met me a few times therefore i like brychans mates :)

uni is uni, i hae a proposal due in next week, i think i want to do my applied work in the royal british legion home thats nearby somewhere, i think i can learn a lot from veterans like those :) tho they'll probably all hold with the idea that drama is for cissys lol.

i have a job! (i should post more lol) its at the Office concession in the giant topshop in town. i'm enjoying it so far, mainly cos of all the pretty shoes i get to look at, i dont enjoy it so much when a customer asks for the pretty shoes and i have to balance on a ladder and try not to fall off while pulling out the right box! but i got a free pair of sexy silver wrap around boots and i get 35% off which is niiiiiiiiiiiiiice.

i'm off to see Macbeth next week which will be rather fabulous as it has the swoonirific Patrick Stewart in it (ok not so swoony but hes a damn good actor)

i got awesome things for my birthday including.... A Necklace made our of quartz and amethyst into a triskele :) some nuclear waste containers a pink leatherman, a funky funky mask, a photo hangy thing, a duck keyring, a meh t-shirt, an Audrey Hepburn belt (drooooool), a nemo balloooon, many drinks and a lovely Dante's Divine Comedy edition from the Bath boys and i think lucy but i'm not sure who to give the credit too lol.

things with me n brychan are awesome :) he is far too good to a moany old cow like me :) tho i suppose he does get beer out of the deal...oh and smarties cookies :)

i shall endeavor to post more


Tuesday, October 23, 2007


here i am

after a long abscence of more than a month i have returned to the world of blog. a lot has happened in the last month, the main thing being that my dad died. it was rather sucky.

i'm fed up with everyone being worried about me. i do not need to be worried about. i've coped with death far too many times already to go catatonic in a corner.

i miss him tho i find myself noticing things i should tell him about or wondering what kind of bird just flew over my head. but wherever he is now he will be without pain i hope.

so anyway enough of that morbid crap (u see why people are worried?) me, my mum kate and anthony and my brychan went to center parcs at the weekend for my mums 60th birthday celebrations. it was legendary. had so very much fun and drank far too much wine. i think i shall lay off the sauce for a few days for i am concerend for my kidneys lol.

i duno what eles to say realy uni is fun, pretty hardcore in the lectures and i havn't been doing enough outside of the lectures but i shall rectify that one!

oh and brychan has a free house until november 1st. so i have the feelign i'll be spending a large amoutn of time in Barry over the next couple of weeks!!


Thursday, September 20, 2007


I just got a horrible shock.

oh i thought i'll just back up all the files on my laptop while i pack! thats a good idea....problem was i hadn't fully comprehended how much i'd lost when my laptop crashed in april. i thought i'd at least backed everyhing up from before christmas, but no i flipped through my photo and files CDs and see that the furthest they go is august 2006. so i basically lost all the original copies of everthing i photographed after that time. including all my photograpy work for the 2nd module all the nights out i;d been on and every shot i'd ever taken with my digital SLR.

you can imagine the sinking feeling. in fact i still have that sinking feeling as i write this. sur ei know i have all my favourite photographs backed up on flickr. but thats not the same as having he originals on disc. its just a horrible feeling!

i shll now endeavor to back up every single file on my laptop. i hope i have enough discs...

stupid age of the computer.


Friday, September 14, 2007


havn't posted for aaaaages lol

well as im writing this one when im supposed to be working in the last 20 mintues of what will hopefully be the last day ever working at natcen!

but i just read this report by the bbc on the spy row in F1 and i would just like to say this can shut up all you tossers that reckon that the FIA are biased towards ferrari they DID benefit from the information (kimis pit stop in australia) and they DID use specifications to their advantage so AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. alonso should be disqualified!


ill maybe write back at some point before the end of the century lol


Thursday, August 16, 2007

seriously how is this not offensive?

it really bugs me something chronic that something that is so degrading to women can be so popular!
Teen drinking is very bad.
Yo I got a fake id though.
Yeeah, yeeah, yeeah, yo, 2 step with me, 2 step with me.

[Verse 1:]
1, here comes the 2 to the 3 to the 4,
Everybody drunk out on the dance floor,
Babygirl ass jiggle like she want more,
Like she a groupie and I aint even on tour,
Maybe cause she heard that I rhyme hardcore,
Or maybe cause she heard that I buy out the stores,
Bottom of the 9th in the series gotta score,
If not i gotta move on to the next whore,
Here comes the 3 to the 2 to the 1,
Homeboy trippin' he don't know I got a gun,
When it come to pop man we do shit for fun,
You aint got one nigga you betta run,
Now i'm in the back gettin head from my hunz,
While she goin down i'm breakin down what i done,
She smokin my blunt sayin she aint havin fun,
bitch give it back now you don't get none.

Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

[Verse 2:]
2, here comes the 3 to the 4 to the 5,
Now i'm lookin at shorty right in the eyes,
Couple seconds passed now i'm lookin at her thighs,
While she tellin me how much she hate her guy,
Said she got a kid but she got her tubes tied,
If you 21 girl that's alright,
I wonder if a shake comin with them fries,
If so baby can i get em super sized,
Here comes the 4 to the 3 to the 2,
She started feelin on my johnson right out the blue,
Girl you super thick so i'm thinkin that's koo,
Bit instead of 1 lifestlye i need 2
Her eyes got big when she glanced at my jewels,
Expression on her face like she aint got a clue,
And she told me she don't run with a crew,
You know how i do but i guess why i gotta do.

Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

[Verse 3:]
3, here comes the 4 to the 5 to the 6,
Self explanatory I ain't gotta say i'm rich,
This single man aint tryna get hitched,
Nigga waste it on me man son of a bitch,
Brushed it all off now i'm back to gettin lit,
Grisa orange juice man this some good ish,
Homeboy trippin cause i'm starin at his chick,
Now he on the sideline starin at my clique,
Here comes the 5 to the 4 to the 3,
Hands in the air if you cats drunk as me,
Club on the set kwon cut out them trees,
Dude i don't care i'm a p.i.m.p.

Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Ok so i'm crap and haven't posted for AGES

harry potter was absolutely awesome, met more cool people at Kates work and read a totally amazing book, also realised how very much i miss customer service (i'll look back on this after 6 months of working next uni year n swear at myself) seriously tho the book is so good. im so gonna be reading it again VERY soon :)

Sarah French a.k.a Haras is off travelling for a year. standby for EmLah to go absolutely insane over the next 12 months probably regressing to a large blob of primeval mucus about may next year.

i'm headed off to cardiff butt for the weekend to se my Dori :)

and i just bought a Creative Zen V+ which is a very funky little MP3 player. its 4gb and i got it for a damn good price! (fuck off mum it isn't extravagent its a good deal and its gonna be really useful to me i do Drama Theatre and MEDIA therefore i need some kidn of semi-decent modern MEDIA player) grr

i have also been feeling a lot of rage recently about racism, mainly in songs that are about now a days which noone other than me and a few friends seem to have spotted the racist content. the song that gets me the most is Mama Africa by Akon, listen to or read the lyrics and hopefully you'll pick up what i mean. i just feel so frustrated about the one-way definition of racism, it is prejudice against any race, which does include caucasions (and yes i know i can't spell) i don't want anyoen to think i'm being racist myself about this song just because it's a black musician, i simply feel that it aggrevates me that if a song of this ilk were produced by a white musician it would not necessarily be accepted in the way in which the song by Akon is. i respect him as a muscian but as a person i think he appears to be a pretentious nob. and yes i am just jealous of the amount of money he makes.

ok i hope that makes some kind of sense and doesn't paint me as a member of the KKK.


Thursday, July 12, 2007

So then, i haven't been up to much exciting since returning to essex, been out a few times n got drunk and worked lots (41 days to go) then brychan came up for 4 days at the weekend and for sarahs birthday which combined made it one of the best weekends i've ever had at home!

and i'll end that paragraph there, we all know i tend to lean toward the morbid when at home!

soooooooo work is basically jsut that, tho i must say a whole week of matching up letters to ARFs then doing it all over with the right letters (thanks frances) is probably right up there with checking for consent no. 3's from last year! but lunch is fun although i did nearly get taken out on the zebra crossing today which scared the shit out of me, the car was literally an inch from my legs when it came to a stop!

headed off to see Potter tomoro night with the Sarahs, gonna try deperately to re read the book before then so i can moan about it being wrong all the way thro! tho i expect i'll still get upset at the end!

oh and wooooooooooo i got a 2:1 in my 2nd year, the highlights of the marks being a nice fat 76 in Design and 74 in independant study, which was lucretia Borgia! so wooooo

anyway im gonna go potter myself potty and talk to zee man :)


Thursday, July 05, 2007

and i'm famous

can u tell i listen to too much radio during the day at work!! but hey i've had my texts read out twice this week!


but yey for brychan comin on saturday whilst im drunk at sarahg's birthday extravaganza, then we're off to watch some tour de france action on sunday, tho im gonna be asleep riding on his back lol

Monday, June 25, 2007

Weeeell then

LeMans was rather fabulous, thought it rained the entire time, well it didnt rain for like 6 hours on sunday then we put on suncream and it went "oh no you dont!" n bucketed it down instead. i got so very wet, and so did my camera bag. mah but still awesome.

me n Brychan spent a few days in bath too, well we actually spent more days in bath than we did in france lol, that was great, he has a really awesome group of mates n it was rather fun. lots of laughs n stuff.

the last 2 weeks have seemed like forever but rushed by really fast if that makes any kind of sense, all i can say is i'm pretty damn happy with the welshman, and the 3 months of holidays, instead of feeling like forever and that theyr never gonna end, actually look as if theyr gonna go by really fast. tis good :) and its Reading Festival in like 60 days!!! WWWWOOOOOOOO!!!

so im back at NatCen for the summer, i'm gonna make a little countdown type thing i reckon excluding weekends n reading n bits just so as i know exactly how many days of random filing and stupid interviewers!

Matty has finally turned up on facebook so altho hes been neglecting my blog of late at least hes on there! plus i havnt heard from seanin a few days i wonder if hes drunk under a machine somewhere. hehe

right i'll be off for now then.


Friday, June 15, 2007

so then


im off to LeMans tonight and right now im sat in Brychan's mate Mark's room while brychan n ben attempt to transcribe some kind of goldmember walkie talkie speech for use on the drive later. i may go mad and jump car before we even get on the ferry

but yey to the LeMans

im off to shop!


Thursday, June 07, 2007

100 truths

100 truths......

001. Real name
Emily Ruth Holmden

002. Nickname
EmLah, Blondie, Em, Ems, Whorebag, Emgle, Embolism

003. Are you married

004. Zodiac sign

005. Male or female

006. Primary School
Quilters Junior, Billericay

007. High school
Anglo-European Ingatestone

010. Hair colour
very dark red

011. Long or short

015. Are you health freak
lol nooo, everything in moderation

017. Do you have a crush on someone
oh yeah ;)

018. Do you like yourself
yes i do, kinda

019. Piercings
nose both sides n eyebrow

020. Tattoos

021. Righty or lefty

022. First surgery
not had any :)

023. First piercing

024. First best friend
william higgs

025. First award
ballet i think.

026. First sport you joined
i was on the netball team at juniors

027. First pet
freddie the hamster!

028. First house
St Pauls Gardens

049. Eating
waiting for chips!

052. Doing
This, cooking, msning, multitasking

053. Listening to
bang bang, dirty pretty things

055. Waiting for
LOTR on Saturday!!!!

059. Want to get married
and i even know who too

060. Careers in mind
Lighting designer/director or just a theatre director

068. Lips or eyes

069. Hugs or kisses
Hugs. with kisses god im cheeky

070. Shorter or taller

072. Romantic or spontaneous

073. nice stomach or nice arms
Arms :)

075. Hook-up or relationship
Relationship, depends on the person.

077. Blonde or Brown

078. Kissed a stranger
many times

079. Drank bubbles
??? (i agree bex)

080. Lost glasses/contacts
nope aint got them

081. Ran away from home
lol i dont think so, in my head maybe

084. Broken someone’s heart
Yeah and i feel bad about it still

085. Been arrested?

086. Turned someone down

087. Cried when someone died
of course

088. Liked a friend

089. Yourself

090. Miracles

091. Love at first sight
i believe in strong attraction, and pheromones

092. Heaven

093. Santa claus

094. Sex on the first date
No, but if youve spent the last few weeks chattin to them then yarp

096. Angels

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time

099. Do you believe in God
not as society thinks of 'god'

100. Post as 100 Truths

Friday, June 01, 2007

right well!

where have i been eh?

buzzing around like a very busy thing. had the 2nd year pracs which went well, then a week of popular theatre which was bloody hilarious, ending in a performance where i got to stab myself in the throat after strangling lenny n smothering bridie. bring it! bloody awesome hehe then it was the conference yesterday all essays in ll work done im finished with the 2nd year!!! woooooop

in the meantime i have fallen madly in love iwth a welshman. yes i know your all very disappointed in me. im a bad person with terrible taste in men but u knew that anyway so why are u giving me that look?!? its cool, he makes me happy, even when hes being a bit of a dick i just wait around 10 mins n hes a nice guy again hehe, even threatened to decapitate highlander for telling his girlfriend id come onto him, oh and by the way they hadnt split up when i was seeing him. i foudn this out cos the lovely girlfriend stood next to me at the bar n said "you're a slag aren't u, yeh u r, uve snogged my boyfriend" which caused me to have an internal explosion but i walked calmly away, when her mates came up to me laughing and joking (male mates) and said "your a fucking slag aren't you" i lost my rag a little so while i was in the toilets screaming down the phone to sean brychan had a quiet word with them telling them to go fuck themselves. anyway this all led ot me talking to the girl and filling her in on a few things about her stinky boyfriend. mainly that he'd come onto me, he was a wanker and no, he has spent the last year and a half stalking dori not the other way around.


happier things! im going to see im sorry i hant a clue on monday which shall be awesome! then the weekend after im home for a brief stint with the welshman to see LOTR on stage and have some drinkies with me buddies, then off to le mans the weekend after that to get sunburnt n deafness from the pretty sun and cars. THEN finally i shall be returning from wales to essex to slog at natcen for 2 months, various trips to wales an reading festival occuring at intervals. mah.



Monday, May 21, 2007

The Thylacine

I've always had a thing for these little guys. i'm gonna find me one and then un-extinct them :)

The Thylacine

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100 questions i may have done before

1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
red red wiiiine

2. Do you follow college football?
no cos im english, but i guess kinda cos sean plays for the 1st team

3. How many miles does your car have on it?

4. Who was the last person to send you a text message and what was it about?
brychan asking me a rude question

5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
no idea

6. Are you happy?
yes. tho overworked

7. Where was the last place you went shopping?

8. How do you feel about your hair?
it behaves quite well tho im having urges to dye it

9. How long does it take to get to your work?
about 25 mins

10. Last thing you ate?
a magnum (last night)

11. Do you wish you were someplace else right now?
not really, canada maybe

12. Last time you smoked a cigarette?
i dunno saturday maybe

13. Do you have any expensive jewellery?

14. What colour is your room?

15. what classes are you taking now?
they've all finished! but it was... Photgraphic fictions 1&2, theatre design, theatre tech, independant study, themes and issues, directing 2, british film and tv, popular theatre.

16. How many hours on average do you work a week?
when at home about 40 odd on uni work about 30 odd tho it doesnt seem like it

17. Who do you like right now?
a dirty welshman

18. Favourite NFL team?

19. Do you watch the Olympics?

20. Last restaurant you went to?

21. Who was the last person to call you?

22. Whats your starsign?

23. Do you have a favourite number?

24. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donation?
not sure change from my lunch probly

25. What do you spend the majority of your money on?
FOOOOOOOOOOOD and alchiemahol

26. Where does most of your family live?
London, Nottingham, Essex, Wolves, Aussieland

27. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
1 sister

29. Ever been called a bitch?
of course lol

30. Got any guilty pleasures?
i like eating gherkins :)

31. Do you drink beer?
oh yes

32. Have you ever experienced true love?
lol i doubt it

33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?

34. Ever ordered anything online?

35. Myspace or Facebook?

36. Do you have T-Mobile?

37. What is your favourite subject?

38. Do you sometimes wish you were someone else?

39. Do you usually fall for the "bad boys or slutty girls"?
oh yes

40. Were you an outcast in high school?
i had a few friends

41. Last time you saw your parents?
um easter

42. Do you have any talents?
yup apparently ;)

43. Ever been in a wedding?
if by 'in' u mean bridesmaid or all that jazz then no. but ive been to 1

44. Do you have any children?

45. Last movie you watched?
knights tale

46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?

47. Did you take a nap today?
i got up like 20 mins ago but i suppose i did wake up for about five mins then went back to sleep for a bit, could be classed as a nap

48. What was your high school's mascot?

49. Ever been on a cruise?

50. Favourite vacation spot?

51. Where is your next vacation?
Le Mans

52. Do you have any wealthy friends?

53. Ever met anyone famous before?

54. Favourite actor?
too many to count! but the depp is up ther with bettany and lennie james

55. Favourite actress?
again too many. imogen stubbs is good, emma thompson

56. Are you multi-tasking right now?

57. Could you handle being in the military?
yeh i reckon so

58. Are you hungry or thirsty?
bti of both

59. Favourite fast food restaurant?
tom hortons or marest in france

60. Favourite Disney movie?
little mermaid

61. What is your average cell phone bill?
36.50 i think

62. Do you own a camera phone?

63. Ever had to take a sobriety test?

64. Do you believe in Karma?

65. Can you speak any other languages?
german french russian

66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
last night

67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
god lol! 19 pairs at uni, dunno how many at home probly about 25

68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?

69. Last place you drove your car?

70. What is your college mascot?
cider n black?

71. Ever been to Las Vegas?

72. Had a one night stand?

73. Have you ever bought condoms?
of course

75. What do you think is your best feature?

76. Have you ever been gambling?

77. How old are your parents?
59 n 60

78. When is the last time you updated your blog?
11th may

79. Do you have your wisdom teeth?

80. Favourite place to be?
i dunno that place i found in Namibia which just had the most amazing feeling

81. Have you been to New York City?

82. Favourite sit down restaurant?
oooo thats a toughie, that place we went in Field

83. Ever been to Disney Land?

84. Do you have a favourite cartoon character?
not really, basil the mouse detective's pretty cool tho

85. Last thing you cooked?
super noodles at lunch

86. How is the weather today?
i've been inside doing pop theatre so i dont know!

87. Do you email?

88. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
um i dunno probly a piece of costume

89. Favourite store?
i have no idea

90. What are you listening to right now?
barenaked ladies

91. Last voicemail you received?

92. Do you drunk dial?
i drunk most things

93. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
flushed it down the loo then attempted to dry it with the handdrier

94. What is the best city in the state that you live in?
i dont live in a state :| Cardiff Butt

95. Favourite band?

96. Last time you were sick?
i dunno, probly after gettin very drunk at Clare Js

97. Are you bored right now?

98. Last concert you went to?
The Used

99. Favourite Drink?
JD & Coke.

100. What are your plans for tomorrow?
Pop theatre performance and then DRINKING

Friday, May 11, 2007

I'm Famous!

i wrote an article for Working Abroad Magazine on my time in canada and they've just put it up on the website! if u download the pdf at the bottom a load of my pics are on there too! AWESOME!!!




Sunday, May 06, 2007

60 honest questions

60 honest questions
if you're not going to be honest, don't take this survey.

1. Who is the last person you held hands with?

Brychan i think

2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?

of course, i'd probably end up with some debilitating injury in the first 5 minutes tho.

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?


4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?

oh yes

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?

well since we don't appear to have them in our sane country

6. What is your longest fight you had with one of your friends?

yikes i dunno probly about 5 days

7. Are you a fast typer?


8. scared of the dark?


10. Who can you always turn to?

Sean or Frenchie

11. When's the last time you chose a bath over a shower?

when i was last at home (no bath at uni)

12. Do you knock on wood?

no, padges head tho.

13. Are you drinking anything right now?

yes coke, and i can feel it dissolving my insides

14. Do you think you're attractive?

i think im intimidating/striking

17. What do you want for your next birthday?

oooo that one i really don't know! maybe a camcorder.

18. Do you know the muffin man?

who lives on drury lane?

19. Do you talk in your sleep?

LOL yes, yes i do, i hit people too! *smack* It's alright becca! i got the fly!!

20. Have you ever flown a kite?

many times, even once in a storm, well when a storm was brewing

22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where?

fuck um. thats a hard one i love to swim but i never get to do it, it may even be when i was in canada.

23. Do you consider yourself successful?

i think i could have done better in the past, i reckon i could do better

24.How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?

hundreds probably, a lot of useless ones on there

25. Have you ever jumped on a trampoline?

drunk/sober many many times

26. Plans for tomorrow?

sleep, and my Independant Study

27. What's your middle name?


28. Missing someone right now?

Yeah i am.

29. When's the last time you told someone you loved them?

last night, daddy :)

31. How are you feeling today?

tired and headachy, think im comin down with somethin as my right sinus has gone numb!

33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?

only for an afternoon

34. What are you looking forward to ?

my prac

35. Have you ever crawled through a window?

lol oh yes, many many times especially in canada.

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?

maybe...... heh

38. Can you handle the truth?

i wouldn't be me if i couldn't

40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?

phone, a source of music, camera

41. Any cool scars?

u can still jsut see the riot scar!

42. Do you like or have a crush on anyone?


45. How often do you talk on the phone?

only to the parents sister and frenchie.

46. Do you believe in love?

i believe in connections, and since thats what love is yes!

47. Is there someone you want that you can't have?

no because kimi and toseland just havn't happened to meet me yet.

48. Three things about the preferred sex that you first notice?

Height, Eyes, Shoulders

50. Who did you last hug?

pip i think

52. Where is your cell phone?

under my script

54. Favorite Color(s)?

Magenta (none of that chavy baby pink) Green

55.Last movie you watched?

Kill Bill Vol. 1

56. What song are you currently listening to?

Wonderful, Original Cast Recording, Wicked.

57. What do you want?

my prac to work!

59. What t.v. show are you watching?

nothin, tho i have the first season of House MD on download.

60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone.?

my Dad

repost as 60 honest questions...?

Friday, May 04, 2007

not much to say really darlings

went out for lennys birthday on tues...managed not to hurl!

um... my 2nd year directing prac is at 12ish on the 14th so i am trying to not panic...ain't happening since i am still lacking four red habits. but my chairs looks hot! i am currently hoping that theediting i did today will NOT have the annoying cracks at the end of each track which have no reason to be there grrrrr.

im so tired right now im a little woozy

i've spent a total of 100 quid in tescos this week but that does include cleaning stuff and beer! so only about 75 of it was on food :S

oh good avril has just come on WMP

laptop could keel over any second and i'm attempting to register the extended warranty about 68 days late, one more day and it would have been funnier

i'm sure theres a new film i want to see thats out tommoro but i have NO idea what it is


i would like to see my sister!!

its 4 years since my grandad went on to the next world. (((HUGS)))

this is starting to sound like a "100 things" so im gonna bugger off now!!


Friday, April 27, 2007


sayonara to everything that was on my laptop, work photos music tv shows, everything.


and all because i bought an external hard drive



Tuesday, April 24, 2007


One word only
1. Where is your cell phone? next to me on the desk
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend? well me bit of manflesh is nice
3. Your hair? Blonde.
4. Your mother? hmm
5. Your father? legendary
6. Your favourite item? my triskele ring
7. Your dream last night? it was very peculiar
8. Your favourite drink? COKE
9. Your dream car? something speedy
10. The room you are in? Pink
11. Your ex? Andy
12. Your fear? Debilitating Disease
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Known
14. Who did you hang out with last night? Brychan, Pip n Costello
15. What you're not? Usual
19. The last thing you did? type
20. What are you wearing? Stripy Jumper
22. Your favourite book? Alanna: The First Adventure
23. The last thing you ate? N'apple
24. Your life? Varied
25. Your mood? Suspended
26. Your friends? awesomely awesome
27. What are you thinking about right now? Photography
28. Your car? no car
29. What are you doing at the moment? waiting for the oven to heat up
30. Your summer? Office Bound
31. Your relationship status? interesting
32. What is on your tv? a sticker that says "i love big dumps"
33. When is the last time you laughed? earlier, rehearsals, replacing words is funny
34. Last time you cried? last tuesday
35. School? ATRiuM

Fuckin Eh!

duuuude danny just posted this link:


and i cannot believe its still on their website!


Sunday, April 22, 2007

My Autobiography

Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as, "My Autobiography" ... And use your own answers, not anyone else's.

My Autobiography

1.Where did you take your profile pic?
in a studio in London

2.What exactly are you wearing right now?
comfy grey trousers, uni glam hoodie, messy hair

3.What is your current problem?
all my craft knives are fooked so im annoyed i cant get my mounting done already

4.What makes you happy most?
music travelling and gettin drunk with my buddies, oh and being abused by padge n harley

5.What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
NFG hold my hand

6.Which celeb you would marry?
do u want the list!! David Tennant, Matt Bellamy, Stephen Dorff, Nicky Hayden, James Lance, James Toseland

7.Name someone with the same birthday as you?
James Haydon!

8.Ever sang in front of a large audience?
yup far too many times

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
yeh apparently i look like delta goodrem

10.Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
lol movies yes

11. Do you speak any languages?
english german bit of russian and french

12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?

13.Do you ever watch MTV?
nope aint got it

14.What's something that really annoys you?
far too many things! when people talk to me when im programming the desk

Chapter 1:
1.Middle name:

EmLah, Embelism, Embles, Emgelee, Chav, Bucket, Slag, WhoreFace

3.Current location:
my bedroom in between chunks of gangs of new york

4.Eye color:

Chapter 2:

1.Do you live with your parent(s):
only during the holidays

2.Do you get along with your parent(s):

3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
married but they should be divorced!

4.Do you have any Siblings?:
an older sister

Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream:
toughie, something involving mint

2. Season:

Andrew Collinge

Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Dance in the shower?
lol i have been known to!

2.Do you write on your hand?

3.Call people back?
yesh i do

4.Believe in love:
yeah i do, tho im not sure i believe in everlasting love

5.Sleep on a certain side of the bed:

6. Any bad habits?
i tend to complain a lot, but in an amusing way i like to think!

7. Any mental health issues:
obsessive paranoia maybe lol

Chapter 5: Have You..
1.Broken a bone:
yarp, scaffoid, elbow (twice thanks kate)

2.Sprained stuff:
lol many many times

3.Had physical therapy:

4. Gotten stiches:

5.Taken painkillers:
yup and i don't take too many as mother thinks sigh.

6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling:
snorkeling in various places, i think lol

7.Been stung by a bee:

8.Thrown up at the dentist:
lol no? who would do that!

9.Sworn in front of your parents
yup swear words are just words you know

10. Had detention:
lol yes damn Amrouche!

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last
Gangs of New York

2.Person to text you:

3.Person you called:

4.Person you hugged:

5.Person you tackled:
lol i dunno Sean probably

6. Person you talked to on IM?

7.Thing you touched:
my hair

8. Thing you ate?
Galaxy Chocolate mmmmmmmmm

9.Thing you drank:

10.Thing you said:
yey!!! pippa YEEEEYYYY!!

11.Person you kissed:
Brychan hehe

Saturday, April 21, 2007

and there sports fans are the last 2 in my TimeSplits Series :)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

back in the valley

thats right sports fans i'm back in the welsh valleys ready for the end of my 2nd year...SHIT

its sunny as hell, i've had a nice man entertaining me for the last couple of days and i helped dori figure out how to build a cage with drainpipes and flower pots. its just a sham i havn't actualy done any of my work yet! i'll be stealing kellys eyes later for my final photograph and then i shall be tweeking away at them for the rest of the day!

i got a free packet of sugar with my shopping! woo lol

it was 4 years since george was killed on the 17th, i think this year is the best i've coped with it! only had a very small moment when i thanked brychan for being such a good distraction! lol i've done and seen so much in the 4 years since, i can safely say i am no longer the little bitch who could be very thoughtless with her sharp tongue, all life is too precious to belittle with petty comments, sure i may still make cutting remarks but i do my best never to say anything that could genuinely hurt someone.

maaaah i swear whenever i think i should write a long entry i get all melancholy, which is just wrong when listeing to idina menzel singing the wizard and i, which is an uplifting and amusing song! "since folks round here seem to be, fixated on you're vertigree" LOVE IT.

chin up chucks


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

to drink or not to drink...

sorry im feeling rather shakespearian at the moment

well i dont have much to add only that i went out on monday and it was fookin awesome! and then i went to work and tuesday and it asn't quite so good! brychan and sean have been doing a good job of entertaining me at work tho. but im so gonna call all the stupid careless interviewers at some point and tell them what i think of them!

hmm i dunno what to add

oh yeah! kate n anthony were down at the weekend which was awesome, hadnt looked at the old family pics for a very long time and i am so very glad i no longer dye my hair dark red! the holidays in france all came rushing back tho, before my dad got how he is, we used to have so much fun! we still now have some fun but i guess i should be thankful for those moments of clarity that let me know hes still in there somewhere! but yes kate n athony were awesome even if kimi did come third and massa was being a gay!


Saturday, April 07, 2007

I've read 34 of 100 books

BBC Top 100 Books:

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien (x)
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen ( )
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman ()
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams (x)
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling (x)
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee ( )
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne (x)
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell (x)
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis (x)
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë ( )
Total so far: 6

11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller ( )
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë (x)
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks ( )
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier ( )
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger ( )
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame (x)
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens ( )
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott ( )
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres ( )
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy ( )
Total so far: 8

21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell ( )
22. Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling (x)
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling (x)
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling (x)
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien (x)
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy ( )
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot ( )
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving ( )
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck ( )
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll (x)
Total so far: 13

31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson (x)
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez ( )
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett ( )
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens ( )
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl (x)
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson ()
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute ( )
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen ( )
39. Dune, Frank Herbert ( )
40. Emma, Jane Austen ( )
Total so far: 15

41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery ( )
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams (x)
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald ( )
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas ( )
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh ( )
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell (x)
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens ()
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy ( )
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian (x)
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher ( )
Total so far: 18

51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett (x)
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck ()
53. The Stand, Stephen King ( )
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy ( )
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth ( )
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl (x)
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome (x)
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell (x)
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer ( )
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky ( )
Total so far: 22

61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman ( )
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden ( )
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens ( )
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough ( )
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett (x)
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton (x)
67. The Magus, John Fowles ( )
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman (x)
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett (x)
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding (x)
Total so far: 27

71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind ( )
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell ( )
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett (x)
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl (x)
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding ( )
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt ( )
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins ( )
78. Ulysses, James Joyce ( )
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens ( )
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson (x)
Total so far: 30

81. The Twits, Roald Dahl (x)
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith ( )
83. Holes, Louis Sachar ( )
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake (x)
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy ( )
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson ( )
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley ( )
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons ( )
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist ()
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac ( )
Total so far: 32

91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo ( )
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel ( )
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett (x)
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho ( )
95. Katherine, Anya Seton ( )
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer ( )
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez ( )
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson ( )
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot (x)
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie (x)
Total: 34

Copy and post with the title "I've read 34... out of 100 books."

Friday, April 06, 2007

2 more done


a text that could rival matty

i was awoken at 7am this morning by the wonder of a text from sean...
"Today is the day sean price plans to break a personal record of hours in a week, by accumalating a massive 60 hours in 5 days. with this in mind and two more days work after this he could set a new pb for 7 days of work with a huge 76 hours in 7 days, he has been quoted as saying 'it's a massive achievement not only for me, my fans but my adoring wife emily who has ben there through thick and thin' today greatness is spelt s e a n! Bored emily! :( x"
well i think you can guess my reaction at that time in the morning was WTF and roll over n back to sleep! but hey seany boy u got a whole post about u!


Thursday, April 05, 2007

since kate likes my surveys...

100 Things

1. I’ only doing this cos Kate’s done it twice and I feel left out...
2. ...Usually I’m far too independent to feel left out.
3. Though I do have my moments.
4. Eating an apple whilst typing is hard...
5. ...I wonder what would happen if I got apple juice on my laptop.
6. I like random things…
7. …So by the time I get to the end of this it will be very random
8. Shakespeare’s work is written in the most beautiful language ever.
9. I like iambic pentameter…
10. …This is probably why these lines are linking 2, 2, and then 3.
11. My dad just got back from France
12. I’m very glad it was fun for him as I always worry when he is alone…
13. …Which is strange cos I don’t worry about my mum being alone
14. I wish I had more pets other than a goldfish

15. The goldfish is called Emily
16. Its tank mate is called Beky
17. We were going to get 4 but Pippa n Kelly didn’t want them.
18. I’m only at 18 and feeling the strain
19. I’m 21 but feel like I’m 28…
20. …This is the exact opposite to my sister. (Mwah)
21. I lived in Canada for 8 months
22. I fully intend to emigrate there when I’m about 25/26
23. The word ‘emigrate’ reminds me of the Borrowers…
24. …I’ve only read the Borrowers books once but seen the TV series many times…
25. …The film was disappointing though
26. I was never a book-addict until I was 13
27. Tamora Peirce saved my mental functions by getting me to read.
28. I’d quite like to be Alanna, but taller...
29. …I’d have made a good knight I think.
30. I collect weird stuff from places I’ve been.
31. I’d like to do something interesting with them other than keeping them in a draw.
32. JD is my favourite drink.
33. For the last 3 birthdays and Christmases (if not more) I received at least 1 JD themed gift.
34. I compose photographs in my head when I see something beautiful/interesting.
35. I’m so glad I discovered photography at Uni else I’d be lost.
36. I used to be able to bang out a high grade essay in 2 hours having done no research.
37. I’m slightly worried that I can no longer do this.
38. Everyone thinks Hollyoaks is a load of Bollox…
39. …But I quite like the storylines if not most of the characters.
40. I like to think kids will watch it and learn something about life.
41. I find myself very depressed when people don’t know things that I take for granted as general knowledge.
42. My family are very middle class.
43. I think good food is more important than good clothing (except maybe shoes).
44. I have 18 pairs of shoes at uni…
45. …I'm not overly sure how many pairs I have at home…
46. …I’m slightly scared about the number of shoes I own and how many times I’ve worn them.
47. I am a film geek
48. I have an approximate total of 250+.
49. And when people ask me what my favourite film is I get very stressed…
50. …I think its Poseidon Adventure, if only because I love the old version and I like the new one.
51. I cannot believe it’s almost 2 years since I finished my job in Lake Louise

52. …And that in all that time I’ve only seen Rachel and Elise.
53. I like to play guild wars…
54. …I’m thinking it’s the reason for my problems with my neck.
55. I need an actual desk in my room at home.
56. My laptop is burning my legs.
57. I have incredibly see-through skin…
58. …This is really un-sexy as u can see all my veins.
60. I get annoyed when my mum compares her current physical state to mine…
61. …I do not feel a 21 year-old should have similar pains to a 59 year-old…
62. …I’m now slightly worried I’ve gotten my mum’s age wrong..
63. I miss living with blokes.
64. Girls are far too self-involved; myself included (not a dig, truth).
65. I can’t bring myself to buy clothes from shops like Nefertiti in Ponty…
66. …because they remind me of chav shops in Basildon.
67. Having Basildon on my passport is very embarrassing.
68. I love to watch people’s expressions when they receive information that can be classed as Stereotypical.
69. Such as being a blonde from Essex.
70. I’m not sure the last 2 made much sense.
71. I wish I was doing my 2nd year prac as my third year prac…
72. …Since Handmaids Tale means a lot to me.
73. Handmaids Tale and Goo Goo dolls got me through a bad time in lower sixth.
74. Its almost 4 years.
75. I spend a lot of time making sarcastic jokes and Innuendo.
76. In-Your-Endo.
77. I first watched scrubs in Victoria in Canada in 2002.
78. I have been addicted to it ever since.
79. I get my life lessons from the last 5 minutes of scrubs episodes.
80. And I hear the “duh di duh duh duh duh di duuuuuh” song when I’m considering something sad.
81. I’m currently addicted to Facebook.
82. It is strangely depressing when you refresh the homepage and nothing has happened.
83. I spent the afternoon lying on a trampoline with my gal pals…
84. …I love that they know me better than I know myself…
85. …It is impossible for me to offend them (unless I majorly over stepped the line and I’m pretty sure I’d notice I was about to do that.)
86. I know that in a minute I’ll have to go back through this and add “…’s” and capital letters.
87. I don’t understand why they made Dougary Scott English in Desperate Housewives when he sounds much better Scottish.
88. I used to collect teapots…
89. …And interesting rocks.
90. I’d make my family go to castles and caves when we went on holiday in France.
91. I was a pain in my sister’s arse until she left home.
92. Now I wouldn’t be without her.
93. I want to have written, directed and lit a play by the time I’m 40.
94. I love to make photomontages of each month that passes.
95. People constantly thieve my photos for their facebook/myspace/bebo…
96. …This only annoys me occasionally.
97. I’d like to learn to fence properly…
98. …And then go to Shushuan.
99. I just missed Hollyoaks cos I was writing this.
100. I’m very impressed I got this far!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

yes i know...

...this is the second survey in 2 days, i apologeise!

if your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be?
so, here's how it works:
1. open your library (itunes, winamp, media player, ipod, etc)
2. put it on shuffle
3. press play
4. for every question, type the song that's playing
5. when you go to a new question, press the next button
6. be honest, even if you're embarassed to have the song or it doesn't fit

opening credits: Emmit Remus - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

waking up: Rendez Vous - Basement Jaxx

first day of school: Nails for Breakfast, Tacks for Snacks - Panic at the Disco

falling in love: Right Place, Right Time - Original Cast, Starlight Express

fight song: Forced In - Muse

breaking up: Somebody To Love - Various, Hard Dance

prom: Up, Up, Up - Goo Goo Dolls

life's ok: Little L Jamiroquai

mental breakdown: Seven Seas of Rhye - Queen

driving: Gotta Reason - Hard-Fi

flashback: The Only Way is the Wrong Way - Filter

getting back together: The End - My Chemical Romance

wedding: Melody Calls - Doves

birth of a child: The Heat Is On - Miss Saigon

final battle: Daggers Through the Heart of St Angeles - Alexisonfire

death scene: Dirty Paki - Beans on Toast (lol!)

funeral song: Keep Your Eyes Peeled - The Automatic

ending credits: To Hell We Ride - LostProphets

ahahah!! some of those are seriously awesome!!!


Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Photography so far...

Have you Ever...?

Played Spin the Bottle?: Yup, but i really shouldn't have played it with the Lucretia cast

Toilet Paper someone's house: Chuck town count? cos i was living there but it was staff accom.

Played Poker with money: nope

Gone swimming in a white T-shirt: don't think so, had a tie dye one to swim in when i was a kid

Been tickled so hard you couldn't talk: my sister is evil.

Went camping: mainly in Buxton (mumble fucking buxton mumble) France n Namibia

Had a crush on your sisters friend: i dont think so

Walked in the rain without an umbrella: i live in wales and am very forgetful

Been in a talent show: many times :) gotta love the Eisteddfod at Anglo

Worn somthing your mom didn't appove of: no i dont think i have,

Been to a nude beach: not on purpose

Drank jack daniels: if u know me u kno the answer!

Cursed in a church: lol i expect so, fookin pacabels cannon

Burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightner: yup

Wanted to be a police officer: nope

Been hit on by someone too old: um i dunno probly at Stock Brook

Wanted to be a model: i am one ;) some work from it wud be nice tho lol

Bought lottery tickets: sometimes

Cried during a movie: ok im gonna get abused for this, only movie i have ever cried at.... LOTR when shadowfax first appears. *ducks and covers*

Wanted something you couldn't have: of course, but thats life.

Had sex on the beach: nope

Had the drink sex on the beach: i do love that cocktail

Seen someone shoplift: lol yeah i was teachin them how to do it! (yes bad person)

Hung up on someone: hmmm perhaps once on sean

Yelled at your pet: well um, the goldfish weren't being interesting so.

Bought a thong when the cashier was a guy: yup

Tried to strip when drunk: lol i don't remember.

Gotten seasick: maybe once

Played a prank on somone that had them really scared: i dunno maybe

Been embarassed by one of your family: constantly! have u met my family? (not u kate jus mum n dad)

Felt bad about eating meat: only when it was the limping goat in Namibia!

Screamed in a library: hahaha yes! u should have seen everyone jump

Laughed so hard u cried: many times, having talented comedians as mates is a bonus

Went up to a complete stranger and started talking: yeah "hi, whats your favourite animal?"

Been sunburned: yes, and in interesting patterns too

Kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert: no, but iv come very close a few times

Threw up in school: yes

Recieved an anonymous love letter: lol yes poor old nick tan

Had to wear something you hated: i dont think i have

Cursed in front of your parents: daily. its just language.

Been in a commerical on tv: no,

Been out of the country: i pity those that haven't!

Been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk: yeah men shouldnt be allowed car horns

Won at pool: yup i have I BEAT SEAN!!!!

Went to a party where you were the ony sober one: am i ever sober?

Went on a diet: nope

Tanned topless: yup

Been attacked by seagulls: hehe it only had one foot.

Been searched in an airport: yeah my belts never fail to set off the alarms

Been on a plane: uuurrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh yes

Thown a shoe at someone: yup

Broke someone's heart: yeah but it was for the best

Sung in the shower: yup

Bought something way too expensive: im a girl....

Done something really stupid that you still laugh about: again, daily

Been walked in on when you were dressing: yup

Ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie: no, i am fearless movie wise!

Been kicked out of the mall: no

Been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back: i expect so, quite often what i say is taken the wrong way, when i realise it has been i tend to swear a lot I AM NEVER SERIOUS!

Been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one: yes

Done something stupid when you were drunk: of course

Fell off your roof: i fell of a roof once, the toilets at a campsite, i bounced.

Pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone: lol yeh, i cant believe they bought it! it was final destination 2 :|

Had a deer jump in front of your car: yup, tho i werent driving

Threated someone witha water gun: of course, it was an ostritch one.

Can you....

Unwrap a starburst with your tounge: never tried

Sing: used to very well, now not so well

Open your eyes underwater: yes, in saltwater

Ice skate: yup

Sing in front of a crowd: yes, many times

Whistle: through teeth and lips

Be a bitch at times: yes, but only when i can't tell someone theyr hacking me off cos it would effect other people.

Do thirty pull ups: nooooooo

Walk in really high heals: of course...girl

Eat super spicy foods: yes

Skateboard: vaguely

Sleep with the lights on: yarp

Mulititask: yes...girl. though i think, makin a perfect cappucino whilst singing westside story and doin a dance and doing a crossword should be super-multitasking

Touch your nose with your tounge: yes, pip helped me to discover that one

Fall asleep easily in the car: nope

Surf: just about

fit in your locker: i used to be able to in yr 9

do the splits: nope my muscles r stretched as it is!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Sunday, March 25, 2007

so what do i say...

third year pracs again! wooo! excpt im not soley in charge of any this year im jus helping out with bits of rigging and lighting design, still i expect ill get very drunk with all the 3rd years on friday jus like last year, at least the folks wont be picking me up at 8am! sigh

met a nice guy last night, i never seem to talk about blokes on here anymore probably cos this gets posted to facebook which is generally where all the guys id talk about are most of the time lol but yeh he seems nice i don't expect any thing from it but its all fun, mainly i wanted to mentionhim cos he has a name thats incredibly hard to spell Brychan bloody welshies lol and he mentioned he follows a norse like religion and hates christianity which gave me a chill of oh shit this guy is the welsh version of phoenix RUN!!! very amusing moment my face must have been a picture.

so anyway it was dans Anchorman birthday do yesterday started drinking at 1 stopped about 2am oh dear i vaguely remember everythin especially that i bought the boys a bloody case of carling for beer pong! insane i am i really really am! i have been very sneaky and am keeping my rent money until the loans come in on the 23rd of april, cos beky said i can pay her then and i have 10 quid to last me a month and a credit card, credit card is not good, especially since i jus had to fork out for 2 reading tickets lol. oh dear kate don't say anythin to mum! i probably will tell her at some point and she can yell and ill give her back half or somethin but im poor :( and this savesher giving me any other money!

i hate being poor, iv never been unable to spend any money before it confuses the hell out of me!!


Monday, March 19, 2007

and once more...

.....i had the panic attack over concerns i wouldn't be able to get Reading Festival tickets altho i have obviously grown over the last year as i didnt cry when the weekend only tickets sold out!!



as they were probably my first favourite band as well as the first one i saw live i'm quite looking forward too :) the line up so far is as follows:

looking pretty good eh :) im thinkin sunday may be my favourite day!


Friday, March 16, 2007

Almost sure i did this not too long ago...


1.) How old were you?

2.) Where did you go to school?
Quilters Junior

3) Where did you work?
probly cleaning up the school pond at break

4.) Where did you live?

5.) Where did you hang out?
The Brentwood Centre

6.) Did you wear glasses?

7.) Who was your best friend?
Ali Hunter!

8.) How many tattoos did you have?

9.) How many piercings did you have?

10.) What car did you drive?

11.) Had you been to a real party yet?
neighbours on new years i reckon

12.) Had your heart broken?
lol yeah William Higgs lol oh dear

13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divor

----------------5 years ago----------------------

1.) How old were you?
sweet 16

2.) Where did you go to school?
Anglo European

3.) Where did you work?
Stock Brooooook

4.) Where did you live?

5.) Where did you hang out?
The Blue Boar!! or the Y if i had fridays off

6.) Did you wear glasses?

7.) Who was your best friend?
Jenny May Balloo "niffa" Couzens and Ruth Crosswell

8.) Who was your crush?
oooo i don't actually know hmmm Pineapple Dan or Dead Dan maybe (the Dan phase!)

9.) How many tattoos did you have?

10.) How many piercings did you have?
1 nose piercing

11) What car did you drive?

12.) Had you had your heart broken?
oh yeah

13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:


1.) How old are you?

2.) Where do you work?

3.) Where do you live?

4.) Do you wear glasses?

5.) Who is your best friend?
My Sarahs i think they know me best :) Sean n Pip

6.) Do you talk to your old friends?
yeah i do tho don't see them enough

7.) How many piercings do you have?

8.) How many tattoos?

9.) What kind of car do you have?
a toy one :)

10.) Had your heart been broken?
lol still yes

11.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?

hmm pretty borin


Saturday, March 10, 2007


it's really weird cos i didn't go out with any of my usual ladies due to Lucretia and flu n stuff! n when i did go out with them i forgot my camera. don't be mad girlies!!

Friday, March 09, 2007

feeling patriotic

There is a forgotten, nay almost forbidden word,
which means more to me than any other.
That word is ENGLAND.

cheers churchill!!

Tuesday, March 06, 2007


with the entertainment provided by my sister and sean i feel very reluctant to post in case i can't match them for humor! but hey i suppose i better have a go.

not much has been happening, we appear to have some kind of creature in our house that eats other peoples food, so far its had my new bottle of lemonade, a pack of Salami and most of a jar of peaunut butter. and since kelly has her own, beky hates it, and pip doesn't eat smooth peaunut butter i'm starting to think i might be sleep eating!

not much else has been going on, my funds have gone from bad to worse with the occurence of too many birthday and special events in march, im scared to look at my credit card bill lol and my account balance! i had one of those weekends where money jus seems to go even tho i tried not to let it stupid snap decisions like going into marks n sparks will be the end of me! time ot extend my overdraft i think!

ugh i hate being poor i'm not used to it! and i cant find any work so looks like im stuck, plus theres no way i'll ask my mum for any money cos shes poor as it is, i need a nice rich man to buy me drinks...but i live in wales and they're all five-foot tall and about the same wide, i miss my nice well muscled lean men! ah well.


Wednesday, February 21, 2007

the end...

shows over folks!

well not today it was over on saturday night....but since i've been holed up in bed with flu since havn't really had the clarity of mind to wirte a fascinating blog entry! and as this is a hopefully prolonged lucid moment, i had a couple of hours yesterday morning but they faded as the day advanced lol, thought i'd better do me a lil entry!

the show in glam was awesome :) especially since on thrudays Saz, Lucy Pol n Beky all came to see it :) they seemed to really enjoy it! the look on Sazzles face during the final scene was priceless! Pip, Costello (and heres the biggy) SEAN and Dan came on the friday, Costello was scared shitless by Montefeltros entrance (hahahaha its a woman in a CLOAK with her arm painted BLACK costello!) and i was incredibly flattered by Seans presence, especially since it was his first ever play, and eh only blacked out through some of it! LOVE IT! well hs n dans fav bits were the Lighting changes and they hastily headed for the pub after (im guessing the real favourite bits were when me n emma kept buying them drinks in appreciation of their effort) and then of course saturday night was the final night! got nicely tipsy on Cava on set, Prof Hand gave us a little sing-song there were thanks and group photos all round then we all went to the pub and got slaghtered! like really drunk at like 5 o'clock hence why i didnt realise until late on sunday that what i had was flu and hangover not just a hangover. not good dude.

so its goodbye to Lucretcia Borgia and hello to life! altho now the Handmaid's Tale starts in earnest with lots of "how to be a puppet" training from me and lots of moanin from my actors lol.

off home on friday for padge B'day, we're goin to the comedy club so shud be awesome despite lack of funds!


Monday, February 12, 2007

just a quikie..

show was awesome, went down really well all 3 nights :) and despite some people being nasty cos its just in their natures it was a lot of fun :)
ill post more on tues when i wake up from my hibernation day!



Wednesday, January 31, 2007

First Sentence From the First Post of Every Month in 2006…

January: im reading this 100 things we didnt know last year, thing on the BBC and here are my favourites :

February: im very sorry i dont update this as much as i used to but i am a busy buny.

March: k so emily has found a website that lets her upload her videos eheheheh. here they r :) well some of them, takes a while to upload them lol.

April: am very unhappy. i sat here for 2 hours refreshing a stupid webpage trying to get my Reading tickets.

May: i just thought id better post cos ive been a lazy cow lol.

June: sorry its the essex.. and i havnt updated even tho im at home with nothing to do because ive been filing my lil ass off for the last 4 days.

July: lets all kill ronaldo let all kill ronaldo na na na na, da na na na.

August: Guido, he fix....

September: reading festival was so very very awesome me n padge had a wicked time n weirdly enough i had a wicked time with jodie n martin collins who used to be my next door neighbours obviously they didnt talk to me as i was younger than everyone by about 5 years n they were all so in awe of my sister (who did not like me at all then) they didnt really talk to me.

October: hows it goin eh? im gravy went to canterbury for the weekend
n now im ill with some kind of chest infection!

November: aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

im like so old its insane! lol also im wearing a lot of grey today, i dunno why but hey grey is a good colour!

December: went home for the weekend which was cool altho my leaving did seem to spark a certain person into revealing how she thinks of me which was nice, well not nice it gave me a very unpleasant trainride home but im sure she thought about that before she did it.

so..... apparently i spend a lot of time at the beginning of the month moaning that i havn't posted enough lol


I've done 102 out of the 132 stupid things.

Do this and repost it with the title:
I've done -- out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [Goal celebrations count!]
(x) Drank Alcohol


Level 2
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired [Being made redundant isn't the same!]
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Been In A Fist Fight


Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
(x) Slept With A Co-worker
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 10

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(x) Been To Paris
(x) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 15

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 18

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel


Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 26

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 31

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
(x) Sent a letter by post to yourself

SO FAR: 33

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 36

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 39

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 41

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 45

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 49

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 54

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 57

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Father Christmas
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 62

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Travelled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey(?)

SO FAR: 66

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls (pearl necklace count)
() Jumped Off A Bridge
( x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(x) Ridden an elephant

SO FAR: 69

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 71

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 74

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 76

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 79

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 84

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 88

Level 28
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someone's Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
( ) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 94

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 97

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(x) Been Licked By A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 102

Level 106
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tyres
( ) Rode your car/truck until the fuel light came on
( ) Got five quid or less worth of fuel

Total: 102

Monday, January 29, 2007


this is a post about sean. and the immense love that i have for sean. he is by far the nicest guy i have ever met, athough that doesnt mean much really since i tend to meet complete wankers. other than sean. um. he has very pretty hair and a nice sexy man body. and he is very very good at cuddles. although it is annoying when one wants cuddles and sean is naked. for as one is seans best friend one feels that hugging sean while he is naked is stepping over the boundaries a little. but never the less the cuddles are very good.

sean is my rock.

i do not know what i would do without my sean, well i do but i'd rather not think about it as it is too terrible to contemplate



Rough Sex Facts

Send this right after u read it, something good will happen at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!!
Whoever breaks this chain will be cursed w/ relationship problems 4-10 years.
If you send this in 15 mins. your safe. Something good will happen tonight at 11:11pm.
This is not a joke...someone will either call you or will talk to you online.

Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories.

Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth

The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile.

Having nice sex burns 358 calories.

Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories.

Take off her clothes
with her consent.........................12 cal
without......................187 cal

Him Take off your Bra
With two hands..........................8 cal
With one hand.........................12 cal
With mouth.............................85 cal

Put on Protection
hard ........................... 6 cal
soft..........................315 cal

Looking for target...................8 cal
Finding G spot ......................92 cal
I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal

on top..................12 cal
On the floor.................8 cal

With Different Position
Missionary..........................358 cal
Doggy...........................316 cal
69 lying...............................286 cal
69 standing.............................512 cal
Italian hanger.........................912 cal

Real................................112 cal
Faking................................315 cal

After "O"
Lying in Bed............................18 cal
Hop off the bed............................36 cal
Wondering why he left pissed off...........816 cal

Get dressed
Quiet and calm...........................32 cal
Rushing.........................98 cal
Heard his girlfriend opening the door.............1218 cal
Heard his mum at the door.............1942 cal
His dad walking in..............................Priceless!!!LOL



Saturday, January 27, 2007

only the clearest and best quality of my murals EVER!!!!


i do apologeise for my lack of posting, actually no i dont ive been busy! spent lke 10 hours on trains on tues and weds, and got stuck in liverpool street which sucked lol anyway..
i had my colposcopy last week (look it up i aint gonna explain it lol) and i still have abnormal cells :( gotta wait for the test results tho befor ei find out if they're worse or not tho so watch this space :S nah ill be fine i hope well i better be else frenchie will hurt me lol.
the shit hath hiteth the fan-eth with luctretia, between me n claire we have the entire set to paint! it gonna take at least 2 days barring mistakes with the spackling, and i have to do the lighting design, i have some ideas but nothig concrete yet, i jus need to sit down for an hour or so and go through it but i dont seem to have the time! and we have to make the plaques, and the sign which has to be punched and shatter without hurting Oli's hand!!!
on a lighter note i've come up with a nice political spin for my directing piece, its from The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood so therefore its a very feminist piece, about powerlessness and the like, so im gonna find some symbol of Burma (Myanmar) and the plight of their leader Aung Sang Su Kyi.
awesome but :)


Saturday, January 20, 2007

fantabulous new book

yes yes i know its been a while, but iv had loads of work to do! although now iv finished it, 4 modules done! aaaarrrrrgggghhhh hehe. not i get to work my arse off on Lucretia Borgia for the next 3 weeks, but that will be fun i reckon if hard work, i shud really re-read the script at some point and make some notes lol, ill do it on the train home on tues nod. anyway the main reason for this post is cos i have a fantabulous new book by the author of all authors, oh she of the amazing writing skills Tamora Pierce (i like her a little bit :)) its called Beka Cooper: Terrier, and its set 200 years before the Lioness books are set, so thers all these wonderful bits of history i recognise from those books (which are my ultimate favourite books no question about that since iv read them about 20 times over the last 7 years) anyway its written in the style of a diary, Beka's diary of her first few weeks as a Puppy in the Provosts Dogs, BUT finally i get to the point, this diary entry really reminded me of someone i knows blog...

"Saturday April 11, 246

I hate pidgeons with nothing new.
I hate the Cesspool.
I hate festering, ranky, puling, gob-clogging, sarden colds.
I hate dragging my sorry sniffling hacking bum through duty.
I love my warm soft cat.
I have good friends who bring me things.
I love my bed."

sounds like my darling sister :) oh and teh cat she refers too is the previous incarnation of Faithful, Alanna's cat in the Lioness books, who dies at the end and a new constellation is seen by the foot of the constellation known as "The Goddess" which was called "The Cat" well in this previous incarnation of faithful he is called Pounce, a name Raoul suggests for him when he first appears in Alanna, and one of Bekas friends points out that he may not be an ordinary cat as one of the "wandering" constellations known as "The Cat" has been invisible in the sky for the last 4 years (since Beka got him) coincedence ;)


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