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Hornchurch, Essex, United Kingdom
26 year old Theatre Person, who hopes to one day become a fully fledged lighting designer. Currently living and working in Hornchurch at the lovely Queens Theatre (yes i know that implies i live at the theatre, it's meant to).I'm a Traveller of many roads including Canada, Germany and Namibia. I love Reading, Dissecting Films, Writing Plays, Angleing Lights, Levelling Sounds, Creating Photographs (when drunk and sober) Playing Guild Wars/Sims 3 and going out with my friends! I have an unrivalled passion for Kimi Raikkonen and motor sports in general.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Stolen from Big Sis

One word answers only. (and I've done my best not to expand!)

1. Where is your cell phone? under-the-duvet

2. Where is your significant other? Barry

3. Your hair color? Blonde

4. Your mother? shopping

5. Your father? goneded

6. Your favorite thing? coca-cola

7. Your dream last night? kate's wedding

8. Your dream/goal? visuals

9. The room you're in? yellow

10. Your hobby? shoes

11. Your fear? barbed-wire

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Brychan

13. Where were you last night? Duty-Studio-ing

14. What you're not? uncomplicated

15. One of your wish-list items? Shoes

16. Where you grew up? Billericay

17. The last thing you did? coffee

18. What are you wearing? cloud

19. Your TV? ornamented

20. Your pets? died :(

21. Your computer? temperamental

22. Your mood? sleepy

23. Missing someone? Yes

24. Your car? awesome :)

25. Something you're not wearing? reading-bands

26. Favorite store? octopus

27. Your summer? busy

28. Love someone? thoroughly

29. Your favorite color? Green

30. When is the last time you laughed? "Tech-Band"

31. Last time you cried? before.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Song That Means...

...a lot to me. it's basically me. the whole thing. from different perspectives. how my closest friends see me and how i see myself. it also gave me some damn good advice last summer when it was released.

Say you to me
You're a bird with an eye for anything shiny
Searchin' the land
For a hero of a man
You say I need
More than my fair share of attention
But I think you know
That just isn't so

Underneath, I felt the fire of a burning question
Tearin' me apart
Right from the very start
And now I see
That it don't take a trick of the light to excite me
So strong
So long
You'll see

Hold on
To what you've been given lately
Hold on
To what you know you've got
Hold on
To what you've been given lately
Hold on
Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not

A heart of gold, an old head, on young shoulders
Quiet and lovely
Becomin' part of me
And now I see
From a handful of names and a thousand faces
One light, burnin', fiercely

I was tired of January
I was tired of June
I felt a change a-comin'
Oh, I was tired of January
Tired of June
I felt a change a-comin'
Oh, I felt a change a-comin
I felt a change a-comin
felt a change a-comin, soon

Hold on
To what you've been given lately
Hold on
To what you know you've got
Hold on
To what you've been given lately
Hold on
Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not

Oh yeah, well the world will turn if you're ready or not
Oh, yes the world will turn if you're ready or not

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Really Hate...

people passing comment on F1 whenthey know nothing about it.

the people i am immediately sure do not know anything about F1 are the people who only started watching it because of Lewis Hamilton.

these are the people who are the most voiceiferous (ignore spelling u know what i mean) in chat room, on youtube comments, on facebook etc.etc.

these people have absolutely no understanding of driver ettiquette, or of any of the long standing F1 rules.

AND YET.....

they still pass comment on everything "ferrari are evil...blahblahblah FIA are in their pocket....blahblahblah"


i mean seriously the only team who have cheated in the recent history of the sport are Maclaren for fucksake!!!!!

putting all the bias against ferrari to one side (hamil-humpers only dislike them because they kick hamiltons arse constantly and they discovered that lewis was only winning races last year because of a) his tailormade 10 year in development just for him car and b) its bolted on bits of ferrari.

YES hamilton has talent YES one day he may well be a great driver BUT he is not the reincarnation of ayrton senna (and lewis you did say you drove better than senna at monaco, therefore you did say you were better than senna therefore your talking out your arse when you say you haven't said that) AND had any other driver in the field been spoon fed by maclaren since he was an infant, he would be exactly where lewis is.

Hamilton reminds me a lot of Montoya. he used to do dangerous and reckless things like diving around in front of other peoples cars! (thats twice hes done it to kimi now, but he wont crash unless its wet lewis, he has better grip than you i the dry)

seriously i don't hate hamilton. i understand that a certain amount of bravado and confidence and even arrogance is needed to be the F1 champion (my favourite driver is Kimi for fucksake) but he needs to stop trying to be all holier than though, i'd like him a lot better if he just dropped the fake "nice-boy" persona.

ok i should probably stop now, i expect i'll get hateful comments on the post by people who have only watched F1 for 18 months and know Senna only as Hamiltons hero.

...i followspotted gerry and the pacemakers today. how cool am i.


Friday, October 03, 2008

Shoe Update...

...it's all good.

mother has agreed to pur-chase for me the beautiful shoes of my previous post as a birthday gift!!

so i was free to buy these shoes to match my dress!
the only downside is that i'll be 6'3" and unable to drive safely. i shall take some pumps for driving too and from the church and brychan is geting lifts for his shoes!

Me = LadyZilla

(like image of me tearing buldings down, like ANTM shoot in S11E05.)

may change to talking like this. Marian Keye's new book written in this style. i enjoy. reminds me of how i hear Kate talk in head.

tootle bye XD

Tuesday, September 30, 2008


Would these shoes...
Go with this dress...
or would the combination be too vibrant...


Monday, September 29, 2008

I have decided...

....to stop hating lewis hamilton out-loud. as the more mean i get the more kimi crashes.

and hating people is bad for your soul anyway.

i am all alone in our family home. mother is in greece which is nice for her.

i realised today i haven't been in the living room since she went off. very random. but i tend to watch stuff on my laptop...which is in my room. plus my nice snuggley bed is waaaay better than a sofa anyway :)



Sunday, September 07, 2008

Hamilton - The Man I Hate

well kate was wrong about me blogging more...

Lewis Hamilton. he is without doubt the biggest cock pocket to come out of britain since bernie ecclestone himself.

not only does he ditch his childhood sweetheart for a bimbo his dad picked out for him with a colour chart. not only does he have 9 autobiographies. and not only does he invite people to watch him race who give the black power salute to the cameras.
but he is underhand enough to dive around the race track in treachorous conditions in order to drive his rival off the racetrack almost certainly as revenge for him passing him on the outside (which he says, is undoable) in the first lap. AFTER he made a mistake, a couple of corners after i might add so it probably wasn't because of his mistake.

he then cheers and celebrates his stolen victory without checking whether or not the man he drove off the track is actually in one piece.

Lewis Hamilton is a world-class twunt. if there was a championship for the worlds biggest twunt i would support him every step of the way to gaining his rightful title.

however in F1 where he is no more talented than half the pack, hes just had a tailor made car, he will never truly be world champion in anything oher than name. because to be world champion in F1 humanity, decency, and a sense of driving ettiquette is required.

oh and i would have thought having your dad hold your balls for you wouldbe a clear disqualification. isn't that tampering with the driver/car package?

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

apparently i'll blog more..

...now im no longer a student, i don't think my sibling gets that im in rehearsals at least 10 hours a day for the next 3 weeks. altho i guess i may blog more after that :)

Friday, July 18, 2008

The Non-Student

oh my...i graduated yesterday.

that means i'm a non smoking adult.

who doesn't get to learn in lectures anymore (which does actually make me sad as i really do like learning)

graduation was pretty fun :) as was the drinking after.

the best part (tho at the time it made my blood pressure spike) was when they opened the ceremony with a piece written by Bach for the Cello, which was played on the piano. it wasn't listed as among the music to be played (i'd already had a moment over pachelbel's canon) and when the opening bars hit home i knew that my dad was there in spirit, or maybe it was just a sign from Her that he would have been proud had he lived.

i bet i just made Kate cry...


Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Starting to think...

...that as its the holidays i should be posting more, no excuses of uni work hehe.

weeeeeeeeell i went to Le Mans 24hr last week, which was pretty awesome. we built a beer mountain out of 362 bottles (thats 180 odd pints) and finished off at least another 60 odd pints once the tetrabeerdron as brychan calls it was finished. these last pints were obtained due to the ingenuity of polish Fil and myself trudging around the campsite offering to buy beer! (and also by brych an cliff who contributed with one case n some heiniken) the final 'steal' count was 52 bottles of Kronenbourg, 2 Bulmers, 12 Stella, 6 Heiniken, a bottle of wine, a pack of baccy with rizla and a party invite at which we got more beer all for the grand total of 22 euros. me thinks we did ok.

i took over 1500 photos (some being deleted for crapness) which are being added to flickr as i write this, very slowly as the tool keeps overloading!

in other news i didn't get into RADA which is now of cos it means i got a 1.4 Feista Zetec '07 reg with a tech toy package instead :) but now i have to earn lots of money to pay off my debts and become a real person. i'm still gonna apply for RWCMD for Feb tho just to see if they want me or need more professional experience.

right i have a feeling my smiley faces are burning and Robin Hood is calling


Wednesday, May 07, 2008

A Letter From God To Man

Once more i find myself finding sense in the Lyrics of Dan Le Sac Vs Scroubius Pip. there's something about the song that just gives u a really righteous feeling, and with it a slight sense of despair for the species! but not bad despair....you know what i mean.

Hey There, how, how’s it going?
Long time no see.
I know I haven’t been around much lately
But…it didn’t seem like you wanted me to be
The last time I sent down a message you nailed it to the cross
So I figured I’d just leave you to it, let you be your own boss

But I’ve been keeping an eye on you, I have, and it’s amazing how you’ve grown.
With your technological advances and the problems you’ve overthrown,
And all the beautiful art you’ve created with such grace and such finesse,
But I admit there are a few things I’m afraid have impressed me less.

So I’m writing to apologize for all the horrors committed in my name,
Although that was never what I intended, I feel I should take my share of the blame.
All the good I tried to do was corrupted when all the religion got into full swing,
What I thought were quite clear messages were taken to unusual extremes.
My teachings taken out of context to meet the agendas of others,
Interpretations taken to many different ways and hidden meanings discovered

Religion became a tool, for the weak to control the strong
With all these new morals and ethics, survival of the fittest was gone
No longer could the biggest man simply take whatever he needed
‘cause damnation was the price if certain rules were not heeded

Some of the deeds committed in my name just made me wonder were I went wrong.
Back at the start when I created this, the foundation seemed so strong.
See all the elements were already here, long before I began, I just kind of put it all together
I didn’t really think out a long-term plan.

I made the sun an appropriate distance and laid the stars across the sky
So you could navigate the globe or simply watch the sun rise
I covered the earth with plants and fruits,
Some for sustenance and some for beauty
I made the sun shine and the clouds rain so their maintenance wasn’t your duty
I tried to give each creature its own attributes without making them enveloped
I gave you all you all your own space to grow and in your own way space to develop

I didn’t know such development would cause rifts and jealousy
Cause you to war against each other and leave marks on this planet indelibly
You see, I wasn’t really the creater, I was just the curator of nature
I want to get something straight with homosexuals right now: I don’t hate ya
I was a simple being that happened to be the first to wield such powers
I just laid the ground, it was You that built the towers

It was You that invented bombs, and the fear that comes with them
And it was You that invented money, and the corrupt economic systems
You invented terms like just-war and terms like friendly fire
And it was You that didn’t know when to stop digging deeper, when to stop building higher
It was You that exhausted the resources I carefully laid out on this earth,
And it was You that even saw these problems coming but accredited them little worth
It was You that used my teachings for your own personal gain
And it was You that committed such tragedies, even though they were in my name

So I apologize for any mistakes I made, and when my words misconstrued
But this apology’s to mother nature, cause I created you

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Friday, April 04, 2008

Life's Little Nuances

this is perhaps my favourite occurance of the last few months;

ok so last night i was feelin pretty down...probably because i spent 2 weeks not having to do any work so had a lot more time to think about the life the universe and everything. so i had a bit of a moan to myself about it and decided to have a cigarette. off i trot downstairs and this guy appears out of no where and starts chatting to me and for some reason it just gave me back any faith in myself and people in general. i then had a good natter to my haras and the night got even better :)

just one of those experiences that make u think someones looking out for u somewhere.


Friday, March 28, 2008

Hair Fun

so which do we think? answers on a postcard please....