RIGHT

here i am

after a long abscence of more than a month i have returned to the world of blog. a lot has happened in the last month, the main thing being that my dad died. it was rather sucky.

i'm fed up with everyone being worried about me. i do not need to be worried about. i've coped with death far too many times already to go catatonic in a corner.

i miss him tho i find myself noticing things i should tell him about or wondering what kind of bird just flew over my head. but wherever he is now he will be without pain i hope.

so anyway enough of that morbid crap (u see why people are worried?) me, my mum kate and anthony and my brychan went to center parcs at the weekend for my mums 60th birthday celebrations. it was legendary. had so very much fun and drank far too much wine. i think i shall lay off the sauce for a few days for i am concerend for my kidneys lol.

i duno what eles to say realy uni is fun, pretty hardcore in the lectures and i havn't been doing enough outside of the lectures but i shall rectify that one!

oh and brychan has a free house until november 1st. so i have the feelign i'll be spending a large amoutn of time in Barry over the next couple of weeks!!

xxx

Shock.

I just got a horrible shock.

oh i thought i'll just back up all the files on my laptop while i pack! thats a good idea....problem was i hadn't fully comprehended how much i'd lost when my laptop crashed in april. i thought i'd at least backed everyhing up from before christmas, but no i flipped through my photo and files CDs and see that the furthest they go is august 2006. so i basically lost all the original copies of everthing i photographed after that time. including all my photograpy work for the 2nd module all the nights out i;d been on and every shot i'd ever taken with my digital SLR.

you can imagine the sinking feeling. in fact i still have that sinking feeling as i write this. sur ei know i have all my favourite photographs backed up on flickr. but thats not the same as having he originals on disc. its just a horrible feeling!

i shll now endeavor to back up every single file on my laptop. i hope i have enough discs...

stupid age of the computer.

xxx

oooooopsy

havn't posted for aaaaages lol

well as im writing this one when im supposed to be working in the last 20 mintues of what will hopefully be the last day ever working at natcen!

but i just read this report by the bbc on the spy row in F1 and i would just like to say this can shut up all you tossers that reckon that the FIA are biased towards ferrari they DID benefit from the information (kimis pit stop in australia) and they DID use specifications to their advantage so AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. alonso should be disqualified!

http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport2/hi/motorsport/formula_one/6995240.stm

ill maybe write back at some point before the end of the century lol

xxx

seriously how is this not offensive?

it really bugs me something chronic that something that is so degrading to women can be so popular!
[Intro:]
Teen drinking is very bad.
Yo I got a fake id though.
Yeeah, yeeah, yeeah, yo, 2 step with me, 2 step with me.

[Verse 1:]
1, here comes the 2 to the 3 to the 4,
Everybody drunk out on the dance floor,
Babygirl ass jiggle like she want more,
Like she a groupie and I aint even on tour,
Maybe cause she heard that I rhyme hardcore,
Or maybe cause she heard that I buy out the stores,
Bottom of the 9th in the series gotta score,
If not i gotta move on to the next whore,
Here comes the 3 to the 2 to the 1,
Homeboy trippin' he don't know I got a gun,
When it come to pop man we do shit for fun,
You aint got one nigga you betta run,
Now i'm in the back gettin head from my hunz,
While she goin down i'm breakin down what i done,
She smokin my blunt sayin she aint havin fun,
bitch give it back now you don't get none.

[Chorus:]
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

[Verse 2:]
2, here comes the 3 to the 4 to the 5,
Now i'm lookin at shorty right in the eyes,
Couple seconds passed now i'm lookin at her thighs,
While she tellin me how much she hate her guy,
Said she got a kid but she got her tubes tied,
If you 21 girl that's alright,
I wonder if a shake comin with them fries,
If so baby can i get em super sized,
Here comes the 4 to the 3 to the 2,
She started feelin on my johnson right out the blue,
Girl you super thick so i'm thinkin that's koo,
Bit instead of 1 lifestlye i need 2
Her eyes got big when she glanced at my jewels,
Expression on her face like she aint got a clue,
And she told me she don't run with a crew,
You know how i do but i guess why i gotta do.

[Chorus:]
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

[Verse 3:]
3, here comes the 4 to the 5 to the 6,
Self explanatory I ain't gotta say i'm rich,
This single man aint tryna get hitched,
Nigga waste it on me man son of a bitch,
Brushed it all off now i'm back to gettin lit,
Grisa orange juice man this some good ish,
Homeboy trippin cause i'm starin at his chick,
Now he on the sideline starin at my clique,
Here comes the 5 to the 4 to the 3,
Hands in the air if you cats drunk as me,
Club on the set kwon cut out them trees,
Dude i don't care i'm a p.i.m.p.

[Chorus:]
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy,
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

[Outro:]
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.
Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy.

Ok so i'm crap and haven't posted for AGES

harry potter was absolutely awesome, met more cool people at Kates work and read a totally amazing book, also realised how very much i miss customer service (i'll look back on this after 6 months of working next uni year n swear at myself) seriously tho the book is so good. im so gonna be reading it again VERY soon :)

Sarah French a.k.a Haras is off travelling for a year. standby for EmLah to go absolutely insane over the next 12 months probably regressing to a large blob of primeval mucus about may next year.

i'm headed off to cardiff butt for the weekend to se my Dori :)

and i just bought a Creative Zen V+ which is a very funky little MP3 player. its 4gb and i got it for a damn good price! (fuck off mum it isn't extravagent its a good deal and its gonna be really useful to me i do Drama Theatre and MEDIA therefore i need some kidn of semi-decent modern MEDIA player) grr

i have also been feeling a lot of rage recently about racism, mainly in songs that are about now a days which noone other than me and a few friends seem to have spotted the racist content. the song that gets me the most is Mama Africa by Akon, listen to or read the lyrics and hopefully you'll pick up what i mean. i just feel so frustrated about the one-way definition of racism, it is prejudice against any race, which does include caucasions (and yes i know i can't spell) i don't want anyoen to think i'm being racist myself about this song just because it's a black musician, i simply feel that it aggrevates me that if a song of this ilk were produced by a white musician it would not necessarily be accepted in the way in which the song by Akon is. i respect him as a muscian but as a person i think he appears to be a pretentious nob. and yes i am just jealous of the amount of money he makes.

ok i hope that makes some kind of sense and doesn't paint me as a member of the KKK.

xxxx

So then, i haven't been up to much exciting since returning to essex, been out a few times n got drunk and worked lots (41 days to go) then brychan came up for 4 days at the weekend and for sarahs birthday which combined made it one of the best weekends i've ever had at home!

and i'll end that paragraph there, we all know i tend to lean toward the morbid when at home!

soooooooo work is basically jsut that, tho i must say a whole week of matching up letters to ARFs then doing it all over with the right letters (thanks frances) is probably right up there with checking for consent no. 3's from last year! but lunch is fun although i did nearly get taken out on the zebra crossing today which scared the shit out of me, the car was literally an inch from my legs when it came to a stop!

headed off to see Potter tomoro night with the Sarahs, gonna try deperately to re read the book before then so i can moan about it being wrong all the way thro! tho i expect i'll still get upset at the end!

oh and wooooooooooo i got a 2:1 in my 2nd year, the highlights of the marks being a nice fat 76 in Design and 74 in independant study, which was lucretia Borgia! so wooooo

anyway im gonna go potter myself potty and talk to zee man :)

xxx

and i'm famous

can u tell i listen to too much radio during the day at work!! but hey i've had my texts read out twice this week!

http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio1/edithbowman/galleries/1739/12/#gallery1739

but yey for brychan comin on saturday whilst im drunk at sarahg's birthday extravaganza, then we're off to watch some tour de france action on sunday, tho im gonna be asleep riding on his back lol

Weeeell then

LeMans was rather fabulous, thought it rained the entire time, well it didnt rain for like 6 hours on sunday then we put on suncream and it went "oh no you dont!" n bucketed it down instead. i got so very wet, and so did my camera bag. mah but still awesome.

me n Brychan spent a few days in bath too, well we actually spent more days in bath than we did in france lol, that was great, he has a really awesome group of mates n it was rather fun. lots of laughs n stuff.

the last 2 weeks have seemed like forever but rushed by really fast if that makes any kind of sense, all i can say is i'm pretty damn happy with the welshman, and the 3 months of holidays, instead of feeling like forever and that theyr never gonna end, actually look as if theyr gonna go by really fast. tis good :) and its Reading Festival in like 60 days!!! WWWWOOOOOOOO!!!

so im back at NatCen for the summer, i'm gonna make a little countdown type thing i reckon excluding weekends n reading n bits just so as i know exactly how many days of random filing and stupid interviewers!

Matty has finally turned up on facebook so altho hes been neglecting my blog of late at least hes on there! plus i havnt heard from seanin a few days i wonder if hes drunk under a machine somewhere. hehe

right i'll be off for now then.

xxxxxx

so then

welllllll

im off to LeMans tonight and right now im sat in Brychan's mate Mark's room while brychan n ben attempt to transcribe some kind of goldmember walkie talkie speech for use on the drive later. i may go mad and jump car before we even get on the ferry

but yey to the LeMans

im off to shop!

xxxxxx

100 truths

100 truths......

001. Real name
Emily Ruth Holmden

002. Nickname
EmLah, Blondie, Em, Ems, Whorebag, Emgle, Embolism

003. Are you married
Nope

004. Zodiac sign
Scorpio

005. Male or female
Female.

006. Primary School
Quilters Junior, Billericay

007. High school
Anglo-European Ingatestone

010. Hair colour
very dark red

011. Long or short
long

015. Are you health freak
lol nooo, everything in moderation

017. Do you have a crush on someone
oh yeah ;)

018. Do you like yourself
yes i do, kinda

019. Piercings
nose both sides n eyebrow

020. Tattoos
3

021. Righty or lefty
righty

FIRSTS
022. First surgery
not had any :)

023. First piercing
nose

024. First best friend
william higgs

025. First award
ballet i think.

026. First sport you joined
i was on the netball team at juniors

027. First pet
freddie the hamster!

028. First house
St Pauls Gardens

CURRENTLY :
049. Eating
waiting for chips!

052. Doing
This, cooking, msning, multitasking

053. Listening to
bang bang, dirty pretty things

055. Waiting for
LOTR on Saturday!!!!

059. Want to get married
and i even know who too

060. Careers in mind
Lighting designer/director or just a theatre director

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. Lips or eyes
Eyes.

069. Hugs or kisses
Hugs. with kisses god im cheeky

070. Shorter or taller
Taller.

072. Romantic or spontaneous
spontaneous

073. nice stomach or nice arms
Arms :)

075. Hook-up or relationship
Relationship, depends on the person.

077. Blonde or Brown
Brown

HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger
many times

079. Drank bubbles
??? (i agree bex)

080. Lost glasses/contacts
nope aint got them

081. Ran away from home
lol i dont think so, in my head maybe

084. Broken someone’s heart
Yeah and i feel bad about it still

085. Been arrested?
yup

086. Turned someone down
yup

087. Cried when someone died
of course

088. Liked a friend
lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself
yes

090. Miracles
no

091. Love at first sight
i believe in strong attraction, and pheromones

092. Heaven
Nope

093. Santa claus
No

094. Sex on the first date
No, but if youve spent the last few weeks chattin to them then yarp

096. Angels
No

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now
yes

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time
No!

099. Do you believe in God
not as society thinks of 'god'

100. Post as 100 Truths