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A Letter From God To Man

Once more i find myself finding sense in the Lyrics of Dan Le Sac Vs Scroubius Pip. there's something about the song that just gives u a really righteous feeling, and with it a slight sense of despair for the species! but not bad despair....you know what i mean.

Hey There, how, how’s it going?
Long time no see.
I know I haven’t been around much lately
But…it didn’t seem like you wanted me to be
The last time I sent down a message you nailed it to the cross
So I figured I’d just leave you to it, let you be your own boss

But I’ve been keeping an eye on you, I have, and it’s amazing how you’ve grown.
With your technological advances and the problems you’ve overthrown,
And all the beautiful art you’ve created with such grace and such finesse,
But I admit there are a few things I’m afraid have impressed me less.

So I’m writing to apologize for all the horrors committed in my name,
Although that was never what I intended, I feel I should take my share of the blame.
All the good I tried to do was corrupted when all the religion got into full swing,
What I thought were quite clear messages were taken to unusual extremes.
My teachings taken out of context to meet the agendas of others,
Interpretations taken to many different ways and hidden meanings discovered

Religion became a tool, for the weak to control the strong
With all these new morals and ethics, survival of the fittest was gone
No longer could the biggest man simply take whatever he needed
‘cause damnation was the price if certain rules were not heeded

Some of the deeds committed in my name just made me wonder were I went wrong.
Back at the start when I created this, the foundation seemed so strong.
See all the elements were already here, long before I began, I just kind of put it all together
I didn’t really think out a long-term plan.

I made the sun an appropriate distance and laid the stars across the sky
So you could navigate the globe or simply watch the sun rise
I covered the earth with plants and fruits,
Some for sustenance and some for beauty
I made the sun shine and the clouds rain so their maintenance wasn’t your duty
I tried to give each creature its own attributes without making them enveloped
I gave you all you all your own space to grow and in your own way space to develop

I didn’t know such development would cause rifts and jealousy
Cause you to war against each other and leave marks on this planet indelibly
You see, I wasn’t really the creater, I was just the curator of nature
I want to get something straight with homosexuals right now: I don’t hate ya
I was a simple being that happened to be the first to wield such powers
I just laid the ground, it was You that built the towers

It was You that invented bombs, and the fear that comes with them
And it was You that invented money, and the corrupt economic systems
You invented terms like just-war and terms like friendly fire
And it was You that didn’t know when to stop digging deeper, when to stop building higher
It was You that exhausted the resources I carefully laid out on this earth,
And it was You that even saw these problems coming but accredited them little worth
It was You that used my teachings for your own personal gain
And it was You that committed such tragedies, even though they were in my name

So I apologize for any mistakes I made, and when my words misconstrued
But this apology’s to mother nature, cause I created you

Sums it up i feel

Life's Little Nuances

this is perhaps my favourite occurance of the last few months;

ok so last night i was feelin pretty down...probably because i spent 2 weeks not having to do any work so had a lot more time to think about the life the universe and everything. so i had a bit of a moan to myself about it and decided to have a cigarette. off i trot downstairs and this guy appears out of no where and starts chatting to me and for some reason it just gave me back any faith in myself and people in general. i then had a good natter to my haras and the night got even better :)

just one of those experiences that make u think someones looking out for u somewhere.

xx

Hair Fun

so which do we think? answers on a postcard please....

thou shalt always...

Thou shalt not steal if there is direct victim.
Thou shalt not worship pop idols or follow lost prophets.
Thou shalt not take the names of Johnny Cash, Joe Strummer, Johnny Hartman, Desmond Decker, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix or Syd Barrett in vain.
Thou shalt not think any male over the age of 30 that plays with a child that is not their own is a pedophile - Some people are just nice.
Thou shalt not read NME.
Thou shalt not stop likin' a band just 'cause they’ve 'come popular.
Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.
Thou shalt not judge a book by its cover.
Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover.
Thou shalt not buy Coca-Cola products, thou shalt not buy Nestle products.
Thou shalt not go into the woods with your boyfriend’s best friend, take drugs and cheat on him.
Thou shalt not fall in love so easily.
Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls’ pants - use it to get into their heads.
Thou shalt not watch Hollyoaks.
Thou shalt not attend an open mic and leave as soon as you done your shitty little poem or song, you self-righteous prick.
Thou shalt not return to the same club or bar week in, week out, just ’cause you once saw a girl there that you fancied but you’re never gonna fucking talk to.

Thou shalt not put musicians and recording artists on ridiculous pedestals no matter how great they are or were.
The Beatles - Were just a band.
Led Zepplin - Just a band.
The Beach Boys - Just a band.
The Sex Pistols - Just a band.
The Clash - Just a band.
Crass - Just a band.
Minor Threat - Just a band.
The Cure - Were just a band.
The Smiths - Just a band.
Nirvana - Just a band.
The Pixies - Just a band.
Oasis - Just a band.
Radiohead - They're just a band.
Bloc Party - Just a band.
The Arctic Monkeys - Just a band.
The Next Big Thing - Just a band!

Thou shalt give equal worth to tragedies that occur in non-English speaking countries as to those that occur in English speaking countries.
Thou shalt remember that guns, bitches and bling were never part of the four elements and never will be.
Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music, thou shalt not make repetitive generic music.
Thou shalt not pimp my ride.
Thou shalt not scream if you wanna go faster.
Thou shalt not move to the sound of the wickedness.
Thou shalt not make some noise for Detroit.
When I say “Hey” thou shalt not say “Ho.”
When I say “Hip” thou shalt not say “Hop.”
When I say, he say, she say, we say, make some noise - kill me.

[Ah, forgot where I was, hang on]

Thou shalt not quote Me Happy.
Thou shalt not shake it like a Polaroid picture.
Thou shalt not wish your girlfriend was a freak like me.
Thou shalt spell the word “Phoenix” P-H-E-O-N-I-X, not P-H-O-E-N-I-X, regardless of what the Oxford English Dictionary tells you.
Thou shalt not express your shock at the fact that Sharon got off with Brad at club last night by saying “Is it.”
Thou shalt think for yourselves.

And thou shalt always, thou shalt always... kill.

num num num

so...

i'm getting rather excited about my post-grad options. i know i know i haven't finished one uni course yet so why am i getting all het-up about another one! mainly because the RADA course would suite me perfectly, the Central course would be good for me (if stupidly expensive) the Welsh Col course is relatively cheap lol and although the Lamda one is too long i may as well apply anyway.

those are all the ones i've looked at so far but i'm gonna get applying over christmas i think. may as well get in there early! plus RADA and LAMDA both do course in the summer (again the RADA one looks better) which i shall be applying for. the main issue so far is whether or not i want to specialise in just Lighting design an electrics or should i be smart and study Stage Managament too on the Welsh Col course?

i think those of you who know me well know that i don't really give a fig (great expression) about SM and i love my lighting so i just have to be incredibly sparking in the RADA app as they only take 3 students a year.

but can you imagine...me....at RADA.....fooking awesome.

xxxx

Murder at Math Camp

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Couldn't help but notice...

....how much blogging my sister has been doing over the last week. crazy mare :) sooooooooooo whats new with me hmmmm not much really. my birthday was a sad repeat of last year but without the 'ricay re-inforcements, instead of no drama paople coming out it was no tref people, other than Sean who is my sean :) but its those that put the effort in i count as my mates :) 2 of brychans mates came in from bath and oxford, and they've only met me a few times therefore i like brychans mates :)

uni is uni, i hae a proposal due in next week, i think i want to do my applied work in the royal british legion home thats nearby somewhere, i think i can learn a lot from veterans like those :) tho they'll probably all hold with the idea that drama is for cissys lol.

i have a job! (i should post more lol) its at the Office concession in the giant topshop in town. i'm enjoying it so far, mainly cos of all the pretty shoes i get to look at, i dont enjoy it so much when a customer asks for the pretty shoes and i have to balance on a ladder and try not to fall off while pulling out the right box! but i got a free pair of sexy silver wrap around boots and i get 35% off which is niiiiiiiiiiiiiice.

i'm off to see Macbeth next week which will be rather fabulous as it has the swoonirific Patrick Stewart in it (ok not so swoony but hes a damn good actor)

i got awesome things for my birthday including.... A Necklace made our of quartz and amethyst into a triskele :) some nuclear waste containers a pink leatherman, a funky funky mask, a photo hangy thing, a duck keyring, a meh t-shirt, an Audrey Hepburn belt (drooooool), a nemo balloooon, many drinks and a lovely Dante's Divine Comedy edition from the Bath boys and i think lucy but i'm not sure who to give the credit too lol.

things with me n brychan are awesome :) he is far too good to a moany old cow like me :) tho i suppose he does get beer out of the deal...oh and smarties cookies :)

i shall endeavor to post more

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RIGHT

here i am

after a long abscence of more than a month i have returned to the world of blog. a lot has happened in the last month, the main thing being that my dad died. it was rather sucky.

i'm fed up with everyone being worried about me. i do not need to be worried about. i've coped with death far too many times already to go catatonic in a corner.

i miss him tho i find myself noticing things i should tell him about or wondering what kind of bird just flew over my head. but wherever he is now he will be without pain i hope.

so anyway enough of that morbid crap (u see why people are worried?) me, my mum kate and anthony and my brychan went to center parcs at the weekend for my mums 60th birthday celebrations. it was legendary. had so very much fun and drank far too much wine. i think i shall lay off the sauce for a few days for i am concerend for my kidneys lol.

i duno what eles to say realy uni is fun, pretty hardcore in the lectures and i havn't been doing enough outside of the lectures but i shall rectify that one!

oh and brychan has a free house until november 1st. so i have the feelign i'll be spending a large amoutn of time in Barry over the next couple of weeks!!

xxx